Where We Are

So tonight I have been spending a little time crusing around Myspace looking for profiles of people I went to High school with. It has been weird...most of the people that claim to have gratuated the same year as me I don't remember or recognize. So people seem familiar and when I look at their sites I get a glimps into how they are living their lives, I get to see whats important to them and their friends. I see people that I knew and I look at their sites and I wonder could I have loved them more. Is there something that I could have done to impact their lives... Did they see Christ in me when they knew me?

I think of one guy, that I remember from High school at the time wondering if he was gay and I remember thinking he was a nice guy but I also remember that not many people were nice to him. And I wonder did my life impact him for good...was I just another person that mocked him or at the very least was apathetic towards him. I wonder was my life as bright a light as it should have been or could have been? Was my nature preventing the love of Christ from being shown? As I looked at these blogs I wondered.

There were also the blogs of people who were Christians in High school, one of whom was the girl I went to Jr. and Sr. prom with (weird) and when I look at their blogs alot of them talk about partying and drinking and use curse words in their blogs and it makes me go "Hhmm". Was being a Christian really just something to be in High School? Was it just another club to be apart of? Like the Key Club, 4H, or the Chess Club? I wonder and I pray that isn't that case.

Then there was the blog of one of my closest friends in High School, a guy that I spent many a day hanging out with him, playing video games, watching movies, working on our cars. This is a guy that at the time knew I was a Christian and knew what I believed. He didn't aceppt it for himself but I didn't reject him and he didn't reject me. He wouldn't ask me to do things that he knew I wouldn't be comfortable with and he knew when I didn't think something was cool. However in the end he joined the Navy and I prayed that he would remember those things that I told him and that he would remember that Christ would offer more that any combo of car, girls, and video games ever could. When I saw his blog not much had seemed to change for him...money, cars and the Navy are all that come out on his blog.

Even before I went looking for these blogs I wondered if any of the people I knew in High School think about me? I think about them...well some of them. I think about the people who have come and gone in my life and I wonder if my life was a blessing to them. I wonder if they know I still pray for them and think about them and I pray that even now God would draw them to him.

"For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. ^Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.

^ Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens,^ Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. ^ Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."

Hebrews 4:18 NIV