So tonight I have been spending a little time crusing around Myspace looking for profiles of people I went to High school with. It has been weird...most of the people that claim to have gratuated the same year as me I don't remember or recognize. So people seem familiar and when I look at their sites I get a glimps into how they are living their lives, I get to see whats important to them and their friends. I see people that I knew and I look at their sites and I wonder could I have loved them more. Is there something that I could have done to impact their lives... Did they see Christ in me when they knew me?
I think of one guy, that I remember from High school at the time wondering if he was gay and I remember thinking he was a nice guy but I also remember that not many people were nice to him. And I wonder did my life impact him for good...was I just another person that mocked him or at the very least was apathetic towards him. I wonder was my life as bright a light as it should have been or could have been? Was my nature preventing the love of Christ from being shown? As I looked at these blogs I wondered.
There were also the blogs of people who were Christians in High school, one of whom was the girl I went to Jr. and Sr. prom with (weird) and when I look at their blogs alot of them talk about partying and drinking and use curse words in their blogs and it makes me go "Hhmm". Was being a Christian really just something to be in High School? Was it just another club to be apart of? Like the Key Club, 4H, or the Chess Club? I wonder and I pray that isn't that case.
Then there was the blog of one of my closest friends in High School, a guy that I spent many a day hanging out with him, playing video games, watching movies, working on our cars. This is a guy that at the time knew I was a Christian and knew what I believed. He didn't aceppt it for himself but I didn't reject him and he didn't reject me. He wouldn't ask me to do things that he knew I wouldn't be comfortable with and he knew when I didn't think something was cool. However in the end he joined the Navy and I prayed that he would remember those things that I told him and that he would remember that Christ would offer more that any combo of car, girls, and video games ever could. When I saw his blog not much had seemed to change for him...money, cars and the Navy are all that come out on his blog.
Even before I went looking for these blogs I wondered if any of the people I knew in High School think about me? I think about them...well some of them. I think about the people who have come and gone in my life and I wonder if my life was a blessing to them. I wonder if they know I still pray for them and think about them and I pray that even now God would draw them to him.
"For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."
Hebrews 4:18 NIV
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